TALL TALES

TALL TALES

Conspiracy theories are nothing new. I remember the first one told to me. I was 5 years old and riding my new bicycle up and down the sidewalk in front of my house, allowed to go on my own only from the corner to the first alley and back again. There had been a flurry of children’s voices for the past few days talking about a monster who had moved into the neighborhood. It sounded so creepy to my five year old mind. I tried to avoid those conversations.

We lived on the Southside, surrounded by former German/Irish and new Italian immigrants. The Southside of any factory town always means the latest to arrive, or the poorest unable to move on, live there. The Southside of any town is where the river flows, and train tracks are laid out. The downwind side where the smog of factories collects in the air and flows down from their smoke towers, while the effluent chemicals left over from production drain into the river. In our neighborhood the Tectum factory dump lay near the river surrounded by an earthen bank hiding most of it from the street. But, the rejected sheets of shredded wood fiber held together by cementitious binder had piled so high it was visible. The air was filled with grey dust throughout the neighborhood. Playing on the dusty, unstable pile was forbidden. A true incentive to explore was unleashed by Mom’s warnings. That forbidden dump was a mystery to solve. Bored children, not yet solely rational thinkers, were drawn there like flies to…a word a five year old girl was not allowed to say.

The day I first found myself captured by a conspiracy theory is one I have never forgotten. The children noticed I had no interest in their gleeful one-ups-manship stories of the monster. The latest version was that he stole into homes at night. I asked why no one ever actually saw this monster. They responded “because it was night and everyone was asleep!” The monster was stealing jewels, candlesticks, and silverware. I raised an eyebrow at that comment! No one in my neighborhood had jewels or silver and gold anything. There was little worth stealing in our homes. With each disbelieving question I asked the children became more incensed by my disbelief. They considered how to “get me,” as bullies are eager to do. The only thing to be done was to issue a challenge and defeat me somehow.

The challenge was this: Ride to the end of this street, turn left and ride to the river. Climb the embankment into the Tectum Dump. Climb the pile. That is where the monster sleeps during the day. If you do not think he is real, you will do this. Uh oh. There were so many things wrong with this I shook my head “no” at first. If the monster did not kill me and eat me as the children avowed he would, my mother would kill me when she found out. But, proving that  there was no monster, and stopping lies which were scaring innocent children like me, seemed worth the risk.

The children followed me all the way up the street. I pedaled as fast as I could, which was so slow they easily kept up with me, chanting scary threats all the way. I stopped at the corner, reassessing the plan. The river seemed so far away, the longest block I would ever traverse alone.

My delay simply fueled the bullying chants. So I turned left and started up the street, pedaling faster than I ever had before. My feet were flying, my hands sweating. So wet, it made it hard to hold onto the handlebars. None of the children left the corner. They remained silent and watched. There could be no retreat.

I made it to the embankment by the river, praying Hail Mary’s all the way. I dropped my bike and ran up the embankment with my eyes closed, saying the Guardian Angel prayer. My knees shook. I felt nauseous. I stood at the top, opened my eyes and looked down into the dump. It looked threatening but I saw no monster. I heard shouting and turned to see children gathered still on the corner saying I had to go in to the dump. So, I did. I climbed that pile and smiled a smile as wide as my smile had ever been, or will ever be. There was not monster. It was all a lie.

I stayed awhile and picked some wild flowers. Long enough so that the children might think I had been eaten alive and was never coming  out. I waded in the river awhile. Finally, I gathered my flowers and climbed back out and onto the street, climbed onto my bike and pedaled slowly back to the corner offering the flowers to the children silently riding home.

I had no supper that night. Penance for disobeying my Mother, and for allowing tall tales told by idiot children who cared nothing for my safety to lead me into danger. Mom warned me that I would be told a lot of tall tales (1950s description of conspiracy theories) in my life; and, I would be a fool to believe any of them. She was right. 

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STAND TALL

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Where will be on Tuesday ?

How can we stand to see

the end of democracy’s vote

shredded by violent rhetoric

crushed like a skull

by hammers of deceit

and lies meant to overrule rules

putting power into the hands of monsters ?

Our Republic is being brought to its knees.

How will it stand strong 

under such assaults as these

threats to voters and election workers

and candidates and incumbents

whose only purpose is to bring peace

through ballot boxes instead of swords

wielded long ago, before our day,

to put in power those who would control

every hour of every day of every year.

If democracy falls to its knees

how will we, its greatest fans, continue to stand ?

We will stand, resolute and firm in our resolve

to stay standing through it all,

to never bend a knee to autocracy,

to never fall below the standards we have set

to remain civil and unbent

to prevent the loss of liberty

for people of color, LGBTQ, 

women, refugees, immigrants, and Jews.

Where will we be?

Standing tall, 

like the Madame Speaker’s husband Paul,

refusing to allow democracy’s fall.

Grab onto freedom and hold tight.

Tuesday will be a very long night.

“Look for the helpers”.

They are standing alongside us all.

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HAIKU

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Unwanted love goes

beyond the path laid in hedge rows

into wilderness.

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Haiku

I love my country

With a passion so fierce I

Weep like the willow.

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VOTE

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We were assigned to write an essay on the theme

preserving democracy for the American Legion or VFW 

contest. I forget which group sponsored the contest, it seems.

I recall the solemn moment I realized the cost of loss of democracy

as I pondered the yet-to-be-written script of how it could be done.

Democracy could be lost and its greatest strength laid askew

across our inattentive road to future growth and glory,

an old and Founding-of-America story.

As if !

As if !

I scoffed at myself as I looked around and listened to 

the soldiers, sailors and airmen recently returned from WWII.

Those who fought against fascism and for democracy over there

would never permit freedom’s loss here. They would not !

And yet !

And yet !

I could clearly see all around me the powerful need

of individuals cowered by fear of others’ success.

“Keeping up with the Joneses” had become a litany,

a passion, a way of life, that had become de rigeur.

The challenge of battles now laid aside no longer sustained the pride.

Competing to win became a holy grail.

Leagues formed for bowlers and ballers;

their boys played Little League as parents hollered.

Trophies filled up cases with virtuous wins.

Still, this was not enough to satisfy anyone.

I heard the call and response to the world all around me,

“At least I am free, white and twenty-one.”

What ?

What ?

Free, I understood. That is what America stands for, right ?

But, white ? How is that a right and why does it matter ?

Where was that coming from? Where was that fight ?

On the movie screen with John Wayne and his troops

who pushed Native people aside and onto reservations

to avoid annihilation, hiding American’s need to claim

a false superiority, to be better than someone, anyone.

For if we are all equal, none of us can be better than another.

On the television screen we  saw burning crosses held aloft

by robed and hooded Southerners hiding their sense of inferiority.

In the North the inferiority hid secretly, under false pride

that claimed no true victory over the South’s perfidy

when it refused to stay within the nation, and hurt our surety

that our Union of States could survive as equal and free

despite the legacy of enslaving people who should be free.

Viet-Nam was aflame, bombed and napalmed in our name.

Those old enough to fight and die were too young

to buy a drink or vote. Most not yet twenty-one.

Ah, I see.

Ah, I see.

And so I did not write an essay; but, a play.

Two characters with Iron Curtain names to delay

the defensive need to deny the truth I would display.

A young nephew visited his uncle in jail,

conversing through the bars of his cell,

trying to understand how it came to be his uncle

was not, and never would be, free.

The 1st. Amendment had become distorted by media,

by political ads and an opposition party

who eschewed the growing power of those formerly subdued

to salve white supremacy, and simple jealousy.

The 2d. Amendment had become distorted by the NRA and KKK;

armed to the teeth they would say is the only way

to keep America white and free as it was meant to be.

“Be careful, young nephew,” his uncle warned.

There are those who would do you harm to silence you.

“Elections no longer count, when the count is misconstrued.”

Only in the final moment, of the final scene, we knew

freedom had been lost in the USA at some time hence.

Freedom is only as strong as me and you, equals

not better than one another, Americans all.

Vote now before America falls.

It took over 60 years to see the words I put on the page

that long ago day, become reality.

The wars fought long ago never ended.

Because human beings always need to know

they are enough, though never better than another, though flawed.

They are treasured and loved more than money and profit.

America need not fall; but, you must vote for those

who recognize who you are and what you could become.

For those who see the possibility of a future

where all men, women and children are the true treasure

of a nation where all are free to engage in democracy.

Vote now. Not for the past; but, for a future that can last.

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Happy Diwali 🪔

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A paradise of glowing lights
A golden day full of shining joy
A warm haven vanquishing the darkness
A thousand diyas smiling a glorious smile
A thousand heads bowing in prayer
Diwali is the most magical festival
It’s a celebration of victory of good over evil
It’s a celebration of happiness and prosperity
It’s a celebration of love and togetherness.

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SEEING IS BELIEVING

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Do you remember diagramming sentences. Your answer will tell me how old you are. It is a part of the human condition to believe what we know is the full truth. That what we perceive is full reality. My first science project in school led me to state finals and a blue ribbon. The title was “Seeing is believing ?” I studied optical illusions and, created activities demonstrating how what we see is not what really is. It was a mind-opening experience for me and for those who came to my table display. It started a need within me to open minds and challenge thoughts.

My second science project was the new (then) study of genetics. I was particularly interested in how RNA carried messages from the DNA throughout the body. Planaria have an ability to regenerate themselves. Cut off the upper half and it regrows a new upper half. The implications from that study left me in awe of possibilities such as regenerative limbs, eyes, body organs. It also made me question leadership and political growth and regrowth of political parties. For example, I wondered what the Asian subcontinent would have looked like if the British had embraced Ghandi rather than destroy him. Cutting off the leadership of a group may simply create regrowth one finds even more difficult to deal with. What if Martin Luther King and Malcolm X had been embraced instead of assassinated?

Of course, those RNA studies also prepared me to be first in line for Covid vaccination using MRNA technology. Medicine is on a new frontier since the human genome was mapped. Continued research opens up myriad possibilities for human health. As usual, when I think of physical health it also stirs an interest in emotional and psychological health. RNA is on the forefront of research of mental health as well. Then, I wonder what lessons such research teaches us about the social health of our communities, institutions, political structures and all groups.

The United States is singular as a nation which daily adds new DNA to its mix through immigration. Immigration is our RNA carrying new ideas, new ways of perceiving, new challenges to our perception of reality and opening our minds to previously unthought-of possibilities. Immigration is the source of our American body’s innovation and intellectual wealth which fuels our national economy.

Years ago I read articles decrying our education system because our students did not perform so well as Chinese students on standardized tests for comparison of intellectual status. What those articles seldom mentioned was that American students far outpaced students from other nations when creativity and innovation in problem solving was being measured. Instead of recognizing where our strength lies and enhancing teaching methodology to accommodate and pursue such strengths, politicians inserted their nationalistic noses into education and began requiring more standardized tests, more frequently, with worse results. Teachers now “teach to the test” instead of “to the student.”

Now, under the guise of American nationalism, Republicans push to control education even more by banning books, firing and un-licensing teachers who teach about racism, sexism, gender, and anything that even hints at a non-monolithic American (read white-male)identity and belief system. Such arrogant and ignorant intervention will not only destroy our educational system and those who are educated by it; it will destroy our national economy, Indeed, it will destroy our very nation itself. Such fools admire autocrats such as Turkey’s Erdogan, Belarus’ Lukashenko, China’s Xi, Russia’s Putin and Hungary’s Orban ; and American governors such as Florida’s DeSantis, Texas’ Abbot and others like Ohio’s DeWine who play footsie with such autocrats as Trump, McCarthy, Jordan et al. Republican politicians pay state visits, dine at their table, and praise them for their “strong” (iron-fisted) leadership; offering them as examples of the type of leadership America needs.

Voters should be wary of what they see in paid political ads, many funded by dollars given to fake charitable organizations (PACS) which are in fact propaganda machines, often carrying talking points prepared by foreign governments intent on undermining American democracy. Why would foreign autocratic leaders want to undermine democracy? Money! Autocrats do not simply control the lives of the people they rule. They control the means of production, the salary levels and profit margins, the wealth of their nations is their personal wealth. It no longer belongs to the people. The people have no say in how wealth is garnered, stored, maintained and spent. Its only purpose is to serve the autocrats. Undermine the examples of countries where the people rule their politicians, not vice-versa, and political leadership means greater wealth for the politician, but not the nation. The power of the gun lobby over republicans is an example of putting economic gain over public benefit here at home. We, the American voters, are the greatest threat to autocrats world-wide. They would destroy the example we set when we vote out corruption, and assert our control over our government. We do that peaceably by voting. Voting is our greatest strength and best protection.

Now, Republicans, more than ever, seek to undermine the power of our vote. They lie about election fraud, poll workers, election outcomes. They fuel distrust in fellow voters. They suppress the vote of those who challenge their leadership. They accept funding from foreign governments to boost such lies. The seek to place election deniers in Secretary of State offices, on county election boards, as poll workers etc. in order to control school board, local, state and nationwide elections. Republicans are now openly autocrats. How do they get away with this ?

I taught law as an Associate Professor in the colleges of Business, Medicine, Education and Social Work while also acting as Assistant Attorney General and Associate Director of Legal Affairs for Ohio University before retiring. I always started with discourse on the Declaration of Independence, The U.S. Constitution and Bill of Rights before I even began to use the casebook we would be using for that particular academic field of study. When I began, I was looking through the lens of my own educational experience. The students soon opened my eyes to new ways of looking at their readiness to understand law. I had summed they had been given a sound background in principles of democracy, civics, government and American history. I was wrong to assume so. Such courses were no longer “mandatory for graduation” course requirements. Very few of my students even knew there are three branches of government and that each branch creates law. I first had to teach American democratic principles, policies, structures and history before the cases I would teach them to decipher. I also scheduled a second classroom two nights per week to teach English grammar and writing to those who wanted a prayer of passing my essay exams. The first batch was unintelligible, lacking sound sentence and paragraph structure, and grammar. When I wrote a sentence on the board and asked for a volunteer to diagram it, no one volunteered. Instead I faced a class full of quizzical looks. They had no idea what a diagram was and had never heard of such a thing. I only did this for my first year of teaching, when my class size of 30 plus students still allowed for the time required. Soon, my glasses grew to 200-300 and I, ashamedly, resorted to multiple choice tests.

I know how so many Americans are duped by the Republican party today. They have been undereducated for several decades. We stopped supporting public schools since integration required us to face the results of our history of racism face-to-face, with real people instead of the racial tropes we had devised to assure us of our noble humanity. Recognizing equality was a slap in the face of white America. No one likes to take a hit. Better to pretend and create the illusion of superiority, instead of openly investigating our true historical reality. The Republican party was cut in half and has regenerated a disturbing adherence to autocratic rule, even if it requires divorcing itself, and us, from reality. This is not a true political party, but a cult, based on optical illusions and fear of facing the reality that no one is superior in a true democracy. No vote is superior in a true democracy, unless Republicans gerrymander those votes. Ah, yes, that they did! It seems, they still fear that even gerrymandering is not enough. How far will they go? To armed insurrection at our Nation’s Capitol and beyond ? Guess we know the answer. Go vote.

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PUTIN REPUBLICANS

If Republicans take control of the House.

McCarthy promises Putin wins.

Not just in Ukraine,

to whom McCarthy says he will refuse aid

which we now give to fight off blood and bone Russians

using real Iranian drones and North Korean missiles.

Worse or not, McCarthy also refuses

to fight Russians within,

hidden behind the faces of Republicans

who spout Russian lies

while taking Russian cash

to increase adds to propagandize

and fill their pockets.

“Oh! What tangled web we weave

when first we practice to deceive.”

A refrain that never ends;

not with Trump, nor Guiliani, nor Rubio,

nor Lindsey, nor Dewine, nor La Rose, nor Yost,

nor so many others, too numerous to list

who would sell their souls 

for a dollar or a ruble…

or simply….re-election.

Such a defection to the other side

is not partisan politics.

That died long ago.

The defection is to Russia

and autocrats who control

all the wealth and power

they can lay hands on,

as if blessed by the hands of Christian nationalists

such as Flynn, and preachers like him,

who protests women’s control in privacy

which expands to every human right

which threatens us with autocrats’ control.

Go vote, for Putin. Vote Republican!

And soon, you will need to hide

not just your money and your pride

but your women and your children;

you know, those you think you own.

You don’t and never have.

They are not yours to give away.

But, they are yours to protect.

But, it seems I forget

you stopped that long ago.

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FRECKLE ON THE EYE

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FRECKLE ON THE EYE

Freckle on the eye,

needs to be watched closely or

our vision may die.

Freckle on the eye

distorts image on our lens,

turns truth into lie.

Freckle on the eye,

from staring too long at their

narcissistic cries.

Freckle on the eye

make us so blind that we must

follow their sighs.

Freckle on the eye

leads to paths we had hoped 

never to follow blind.

Freckle on the eye.

who knew such things existed ?

Seems, not you, nor I.

Freckle on the eye,

democracy may be lost  

by those unwilling to see

their vote may kill the world’s 

greatest democracy.

Freckle on the eye

of candidates refusing to see

they are the blind leading the blind.

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HOAR FROST

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Frost rises before dawn and flees the garden bed

before Sun can catch her in her splendor.

Faster than squirrels she runs across fields and rivulets

leaving white crystals trailing behind in a momentary glittery shine

across the folds of orange and gold left by falling leaves

that shimmer in the slight breeze of Sun-warmed air

to prepare us for the day to come.

Each morning I rise and try to catch Frost by surprise,

but she is too slick, too quick; and I, now too slow.

She laughs in my face with icy breath until I am so cold

my limbs tremble as the those of the trees shedding leaves.

I shed my earthly dreams as frost awakens me to journeys ahead.

Frost is a fleeting thing, reminding me that I am, too.

Frost has turned my hair white; it seems, overnight.

And so I say, “Good morning, Frost.”

And she replies, “Good morning, you.”

Such days are numbered, and too few.

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