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THE PERFECT STORM

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We are in the midst of a perfect storm.

Those who seek perfection, especially

a perfection to match themselves,

which they consider the norm,

relish the chaos which leads astray

a nation once dedicated to the proposition

that “all men are created equal 

and endowed by their creator with the right

to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.”

What a lovely concept in sunny weather,

on a clear blue day.

But, those seeing red over perceived imperfection

cannot tolerate those who refuse to let the imperfect

get in the way of the possible.

They prefer to cut programs and taxes,

to keep their money in their own pockets,

show their personal largesse to those deemed worthy.

If only, they could see their own imperfections clearly.

We would not be in this frightful storm.

The winds of fascism and authoritarianism stir wildly

every manner, moral tome, and rule of law, and norm.

The rain of terror by masked militia in our streets

is more costly than housing the homeless,

feeding the hungry, educating our young people

who live with expectations of defeat.

The young see their pursuit of happiness and their freedom

being washed away, with inequality laid at their feet.

I do not believe in perfection. 

There are few perfect days.

Clouds are born by winds unseen 

shadowing perfection and laying it aside

while violent storms brew.

I do not seek the impossible. 

It is too costly and uncontrollable.

I know no policy nor program is perfect, as is no man.

Nothing makes us greater than to simply understand

we are all flawed human beings doing the best we can.

There can be no apology for silently marveling 

and supporting these dark days.

The perfect see no reason to apologize

for the greater wisdom of their ways.

We are left to raise umbrellas 

to protect as many as we can.

But, umbrellas are no match for perfect storms

created by our fellow man.

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The Passion of Old Age

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I carry the buckets heavy with ash

from the spot where love burned 

long in the past.

Charred earth remains.

Charred hopes dashed.

Passion so bright it lit up the night.

Only ash remains in dawn’s cold light.

Ash is good for the soul.

It reminds us what we all know

in the darkest recesses 

where we seldom go.

We are dust.

and return to dust we must.

Thus, I carry buckets, yours and mine,

with ashes from a brighter time

where light was stronger,

where we could see better.

When we were stronger,

and we were better.

I remember the sparks

that lit love sublime

as I empty the buckets

and spread a dust so fine.

It covers the garden bed

where our roses now climb.

Each rose is a kiss

recalled from the time

when your touch started a fire

and your lips on mine

offered a taste of the Divine.

And love, warm love,

continues to grow.

Its fire now banked

in a steady, warm glow.

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SELF-STUDIES

You became someone else

While I was turned away,

head buried in books

refusing to lift eyes off the page.

Years of study in silent solitude

drew me far away

from the truth that is you.

You, the girl inside,

hidden from view.

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NOT JUST A DREAM

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Dream bigger.

Seek more.

There are no limits

beyond the door.

Stand at the fence.

Find your spot.

Peek through the holes.

Let your interest be caught

by what you enjoy,

by what you have not.

It is all yours

wherever you look.

It is yours to explore.

One foot, then another.

Keep on going

until you discover

something you never

imagined before.

Let dreams guide your way.

Let them tow you along

to places of light and music

where you sing along.

Then dance through the night

and on into the light

emboldened and strong.

What a beautiful sight !

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SHADE GARDEN

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It is hard to flower in the shade.

Floral display is for the bees

and pollinators who see

the value and possibility

of a plant to survive beyond its seed.

Nectar moves with pollen from darkest night

and plants mingle and join in plain sight,

to be more and to do more

than simply survive. They strive to thrive.

In deep shade plants may stay alive.

Hosta flowers with a single note.

Its flower pulses high above leaves long and wide,

a surprise symphony of  courage and pride.

Flowers who manage to grace the dark

appear as pale as moonlight,

or tiny and overly bright as minuscule suns,

miniature versions of sun-garden cousins.

Shade gardens offer a place to hide

amid dark plants struggling to flower

when one knows one cannot.

The smallest birds and animals shelter there

beneath broad leaves, safe from hawks

and others who prey on such as they.

When the shine of bright light and heat of sun

becomes too much, we run

to shelter in the shade, listen to its music,

dance on its cool earth, and have some fun.

Flowers would be nice.

Sun’s beauties have a price

some of us cannot afford to pay.

Peace comes in the darkest glades.

I happily, and lovingly, sit in the shade.

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The Trees and Me

I walked among the trees today.

Warm winds melted icy walkways .

Thus I could go again to see

Entire families of trees.

I must look quickly now

To know each trees unique bow

As Xylem floods from root to tip

as each sun beam nips and glows

And begins the nest where buds will grow.

I look now while I can still see

The naked truth that is each tree.

For once the leaves begin to grow

It’s truth is hidden far below.

I return home in reverie.

It is time to acknowledge the mystery

that has been my life before I go

beyond this forest of humanity.

I look at my mirrored image

As naked as the trees.

I see the creases and lines

Define the life I’ll leave behind.

Despite some days of bleakest sorrow

I yearn for many more tomorrows.

I will not easily decline any day

that fate decrees will come my way.

Like trees I bend rather than break.

I welcome the flood of xylem and phloem.

I choose more buds ready to grow

and more leaves to unfurl

before I go,

I may look old but am still a young girl.

Where I shall go

I do not know.

It is another mystery

contemplated in pews on bended knee,

or on stools in pubs with glasses raised.

Or while I walk among the trees.

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Another Milestone Reached,Louise Annarino,2-10-2014

Another Milestone Reached,Louise Annarino,2-10-2014

 

Today, I joined the medicare ranks, celebrating my sixty-fifth birthday.  Like all milestones, it forced me to consider the significance of my life. Why was I born? What accomplishment did the milestone celebrate? What did reaching this milestone portend?

Over the past weeks, as my birthday approached, I consider past milestones. I am not speaking about my personal milestones; only about universal American milestones.

 

What are those milestones? At age 13 I became a teenager. My bobby-soxer days were finally beginning. I could claim ownership of American Bandstand, wear nylon stockings, and call my Father “Daddio”. Little did I know that wearing stockings was a miserable experience. As suspected, I managed one “Daddio” before my Father put a stop to such disrespect. Still, I felt older.

 

At age 16 I was allowed to date. This was a total waste in my case. Unless one was invited to be someone’s date it made no difference. The boys around me did not quite measure up to the someones of my imagination; nor I to their imaginary siren. Sixteen was not so sweet after all. Rather, a time of facing the unrealistic nature of teenage dreams. Still, I felt older.

 

At age 18 I could drink 3.2 beer. I was not permitted to go into any bar except the Center Cafe owned by my dad and uncles. My great-uncle George served me my first beer, perched on a Center cafe bar stool, surrounded by Angelo,Frank,Joe and John. Their advice freely flowed and took the excitement down several notches. I went back to Coca-Cola. At age 21, the scene repeated itself when Uncle George served me my first drink, Johnny Walker. After choking it down with back slaps from dad and uncles, I again returned to Coca-Cola. Still, each time, I felt older.

 

At age 21 I could also register to vote. I registered on my birthday, joined both the Young Republicans and Young Democrats, missing the only primary I ever missed  by refusing to declare a party until I was sure which one spoke for me. The next primary, I declared myself a Democrat. It has taken a lifetime to see the changes my vote has wrought. Still, that day, I felt older.

 

At age 50 I entered what we commonly accept as middle age. The addition makes no sense and the event itself is more a Hallmark moment than any meaningful accomplishment. At least I became eligible for my Golden Buckeye card, and happily if guiltily use its discounts for the “aging”. I wondered how I could be middle aged and a senior citizen at the same time. Still, I felt older.

 

Finally, at age 65 I received my medicare card, became an official old person, turned my sneakers silver, and can freely wear purple with a red hat. I am sure that is all my parents hoped for me 65 years ago. The strangest thing is I feel younger.

 

It is good thing to feel younger because I have been considering what the next universal American milestone is and came to an uncomfortable conclusion. The next milestone is death, or perhaps hospice for a while. As a milestone it leaves a lot to be desired. I am not eager to reach it, I can assure you.

 

The beauty of 65 is that I can now pursue my personal milestones, those things one delays until any number of events occur. For some it is retirement from a job. For others, it is knowing one’s children are settled and able to care for themselves and their children. And, for many, it is the freedom to speak more freely, explore geographies of the mind and of the earth, stay up all night and sleep in the next day. At 65, it is time to live in the moment.

 

Age 65 allows us to become kids at play again, challenge the status quo as we did as teenagers, use our true voice for change as we did through our vote, make more mature decisions with wisdom gained through our middle years. Age 65 allows us the time and freedom to become all we can be. We are reborn. We are young again. Today, and every day after this I am younger than I was yesterday. This is going to be a fun time! Want to come along with me?

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