The Portrait,By Louise Annarino,4-7-2013

The Portrait, By Louise Annarino,April 7,2013

Walking through the festival my eye was drawn toward remarkably vivid paintings of several persons whom I had seen while walking though the crowd. Each was gently holding an item in his or her hands,as if offering it to the onlookers,a gentle smile lighting each painted face. Each painting was different; each deeply stirring.

It was then a man approached to explain his wife was the artist as he pointed her out to me. She was busily painting the image of the man standing before her as he told the story behind his selection of the item and its importance in his life. I felt drawn to his story as his smile widen with each sentence, settling into the gentle smile I had noticed in the other paintings. The artist had a unique ability to capture the light within her subjects as they revealed themselves to her.

The artist hung the painting to dry alongside the others,and shook hands with her subject as he turned to re-enter the throng of festival-goers. Suddenly, she turned to me. “Let’s do your portrait. I shall come to your house tomorrow to paint you. Pick out an item you believe best allows me to paint the story of your life,”she said. She added that I could have more than one item. I agreed to be ready when she arrived the next day, inviting her and her husband to stay for dinner.

The next hours were spent looking around my apartment,rifling drawers and closets to discover the one item which would tell my story,define the purpose of my life,and leave a lasting impression after I was dead and gone. It was a difficult search.

I saw my high school diploma,my bachelor and master degrees and my law degree hanging on the wall; the corded tassels from each graduation cap hanging over door knobs.It occurred to me that these were portals to a life well-lived;but, not the life itself. The same could be said for the photos of my family and all of those whom I love, the last menu from my family’s restaurant and its photo which hang above my kitchen sink, the crucifix hanging in my living room above the statue of St. Francis of Assisi which I made so many years ago before faith had been so battered,the awards for racial awareness programs I had started, and political activism photos.

As I searched I discovered dozens of items I could have used. None was sufficient; some more photogenic and “paintable” than others. Interestingly, I came across items left by others in my care for storage and safekeeping. These surprised me most of all. I had no idea the limited space in my closets had been given over to the lives of so many others. Certainly, they could not be used in the painting.They did not tell my story.

By the time the dream ended, I had found nothing to hold in my hands, or too much. Clearly, I was not ready for the artist to begin painting. Thank goodness I awoke then. I do not know what I would have done should the artist have come to paint my final portrait. I am still searching for something to hold in my hands,something which will show the viewer what my life meant, who I was, what I had to offer. I am curious. What would you hold in your hands should the painter arrive to paint your portrait ?

1 Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

Justice and Mercy,by Louise Annarino,March 20,2013

Justice and Mercy, By Louise Annarino,March 20,2013

 

Two words seem to define the response to the rape of a teen-age girl by teen-age boys in Steubenville,Ohio: fear and loathing. I am aware of the crime itself and the ancillary threats,denials,cover-ups,and diverse opinions expressed by the public and news media.I heard the apologies of those convicted and the statement made by the victim’s mother. The hate expressed against the rape victim and her defenders, and that expressed against the perpetrators and their defenders leave me saddened and dismayed. Having experienced sexual assault as a young woman, and lived with nightmares and flashbacks since, my heart bleeds for the victim in this case and for all women. We women face objectification and sexism daily. However,I suggest we put aside our fear and loathing and reflect upon two other words: justice and mercy.

 

Blindfolded Lady Law holds a set of scales,but not merely to weigh evidence. Those two plates on the scale also represent justice and mercy. When judges apply the law they must provide justice for all parties, and mercy for all parties.

 

As a prison social worker I worked with inmates who had committed truly heinous crimes,and some less appalling. By serving a sentence of incarceration justice was served. By participating in rehabilitation,mercy was applied. As a social worker,I sought to balance the two, as Lady Justice personifies. When I later became an attorney, I continued to seek justice and mercy for my clients. Only when justice is balanced with mercy do we create peace,for each victim, for each perpetrator, and for our entire community.

 

It is impossible to overestimate the value of balance. After any sports injury, surgery or illness; when planting a garden or teaching new ideas; while painting a picture or building a fence, the first thing one does is find and then maintain balance. Whether working to create a just society, a rehabilitation program,or a federal budget we must strive for balance. Justice and mercy. Both are essential.

 

All boys and young men,all girls and young women are in desperate need of our protection and guidance. We cannot expect a child born in poverty, or awash in the acid drip of discrimination,or subject to the benign neglect of overworked parents to stand strong against the sexually derogatory messages  in their dress-language-social media-music-movies-television-gaming. We think because boys and girls talk,dress and act out adult behavior that they are mature. They are still children. They make stupid and harmful decisions. This fact is more readily acknowledged for boys who are white, athletes or scholars than boys who are sagging and hanging on a corner. Too often our latent racism blinds our reality. Boys carrying guns in gangs are still boys. Girls exploring their sexuality are still girls. How can we expect our children to show self-respect when we adults show them so little respect?

 

Decisions made by boys and girls have consequences; often,adult consequences. Facing the consequences of one’s actions is just. Caring for those facing consequences they never imagined in their young minds and hearts is merciful. Mercy does not condone sexually objectifying girls and women; but, it may provide a means to address the problem. Let us respect our children by paying attention to their needs, and being willing to pay the cost. How can we expect our children to deny their self-gratification when we are unwilling to sacrifice our own?

 

 

Leave a comment

Filed under COMMENTARY

An Ode to writers’ Critics,By Louise Annarino,3-9-2013

An Ode to Writers’ Critics,By Louise Annarino,March 9,2013

 

Too often

words castigate

instead of illuminate

the disrobing of the soul

by a writer whose purpose

is merely to reveal

an unseen truth.

 

Not enough that we dare

to show skin bared

and broken open

with tortured minds

sharpened to a fine point

by unholy facts of broken glass

we walk upon with bare feet.

 

Unafraid of dirty linen

stained by the blood

of virgins always open

to new truths,writers welcome

with open arms

those who would do harm as easily

as those who do good.

 

Be gentle with writers

in your complaints and admonitions.

So, it is not your position?

Nor your place

to disgrace their efforts,

to scatter their page

with shards of broken thoughts.

Leave a comment

Filed under POETRY

Buried Memories of Drought,by Louise Annarino,3-9-2013

Buried Memories of Drought,By Louise Annarino,3-9-2013

 

The fly rests on a stone chip

laid bare by melting snow

creating easements

of rivulets channeled

into multiple streams

by snowdrops scattered

across the garden bed,

dropped petals

become holding ponds

for the streams’ runoff.

 

Each giant step I take

across the border

of miniature boulders

leaves behind  bare lakes

which soon

will fill

with the mist of

early morning fog,

a final snow melt,

and spring rains.

 

There is no lack of water now,

no need for hoses,

water buckets,

sprinklers nor rain barrels

to bring life to my garden.

Melons and berries

and squash yet hold

faith in my planting

against the buried memory

of last year’s drought.

Leave a comment

Filed under POETRY

Family Reunion,By Louise Annarino,3-9-2013

Family Reunion,Louise Annarino,March 9,2013

 

20,000 types of bees ?

Who knew

what I saw last summer,

the few types,

eight or nine,

flying

flower-to-flower

jaunts,

were merely cousins

from beyond my knowledge.

I will look harder

longer

with greater expectations

from now on.

Magnetic pull

from variety

increased diversity.

The mosaic

continues

with dollar plants

from Lowes.

Abbruzzis

or Abbruzzeses,

how many types of

us are there?

More spellings

than we can guess,

more stories to tell

than any one

can remember,

if we ever knew

what is in our DNA.

Like bees hovering

near the hive

we are most alive

when traveling far

to be near

the garden

where we reunite.

 

 

Leave a comment

Filed under POETRY

Social Security Is Not The Problem,Hombres, By Louise Annarino,3-9-2013

Social Security is Not the Problem,Hombres, By Louise Annarino,MArch 9,2013

This week,I watch the machinations of Washington with a jaundiced eye and pained heart wondering how lunches and dinners between enemies can end in anything other than a poisoned outcome. The fix to social security is simple. Several pieces of legislation recently introduced in the House and Senate would extend its full solvency far beyond the needs of the “baby boomers” and long-lived seniors expected in our future. Yet, Republicans insist it is causing our deficit problems and must be cut, and retirement age delayed, to avoid any tax increase to the top 1% of this country.

This reminds me of the scene from an old western: outside the saloon a group of hombres with drawn guns shoot at the feet of the sheriff to make him dance, just for their sport. Cowards and bullies displaying their power and  control over the town’s population. These disreputable shooters were usually financed by the richest land-owner in the area. This iconic scene always makes my skin crawl. It makes me want to lift my skirts and run them down, shoving their faces into the ground.Are you with me?

Social Security has a $2.7 trillion dollar surplus. It has contributed $0 to the government deficit.It is not used to  calculate current debt.It can pay out every benefit owed for the next 20 years,after which most baby boomers will be dead. It is the most successful social program in our country’s,maybe the world’s,history. It has made poverty in old age rare (less than 10%). It is safer than anyone’s 401K, as the latest Wall Street bust just proved beyond a doubt. Young workers should applaud it,not fear it.

Democratic Senators Reid,Leahy,Boxer,Franken,Blumenthal,Whitehouse and Klobuchar have introduced a legislative fix. “Under their legislation, those with yearly incomes of $250,000 or more would pay the same 6.2 percent payroll tax already assessed on those who earn up to $113,700 a year. Applying the Social Security payroll tax on income above $250,000 would only affect the wealthiest 1.3 percent of Americans, according to the Center for Economic and Policy Research. Social Security officials say that simple change would yield about 85 billion a year to keep the retirement program strong for at least another 50 years.” http://vtdigger.org/2013/03/07/sanders-reid-defazio-introduce-legislation-to-strengthen-social-security/. Senator Sanders and Representative DeFazio have introduced similar legislation to simply remove the cap on $250,000 payroll assessment.

This legislation would assure Social Security benefits continue unabated COLA  increases each year. Chained CPI is NOT a fix;it is merely a means to reduce future increases and decrease income levels for those who rely on Social Security as their sole source of income. As it now stands, the COLA increases are often absorbed by the increases in medicare deductions. Chained CPI would only make this travesty worse.

 

 

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized

Dead Leaves,Louise Annarino,3-4-2013

An empty car park

becomes the playground

of the last fall leaves,

wizened brown flakes

skittering and scraping

scud missiles

of hope

to the garden

hidden beneath

the asphalt,

now crumbling

from heaving and sighing

its icy skin

itching

for Spring.

Soil pushes up

weeds from beneath

the widening cracks

where shredded leaves

find their final rest

and restore hope.

 

Leave a comment

Filed under POETRY

The Argument,Louise Annarino,3-4-2013

The Argument,Louise Annarino,3-4-2013

 

The final words are better

than the first.

They tie up ends

and lessen the thirst

for meaning hidden

within the verse

of charges filed

upon the curse

of a voice demanding

“listen to me!”

 

Finally

 

love enters unrehearsed

and stops the loss

that might have been

a different ending

for both sides

unbending

with no reason

nor rhyme

except our time

together.

Leave a comment

Filed under POETRY

Playing With Austerity? by Louise Annarino,3-3-2013

Playing with Austerity? By Louise Annarino, 3-3-2013

 

In 1964 the Office of Economic Opportunity (OEO) was created by Sargent Shriver and William Mullins to implement President Johnson’s War on Poverty  and lay the basis for his Great Society. Many of the programs initiated under the OEO continue underfunded and under constant attack within HHS.

 

In March,1968, Martin Luther King,Jr. was assassinated and African-Americans living in  segregated enclaves within large urban areas erupted in grief and anger. But not in Indianapolis where then-presidential candidate Senator Robert F. Kennedy spoke to the crowd gathered to hear a campaign speech. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BCrx_u3825g

 

Senator Kennedy announced the assassination and then identified with the pain,grief and vengeful feelings likely to be felt, having experienced  the assassination of his own brother. He called for love,wisdom,compassion and justice for those who still suffer in our country. He acknowledged that most people Black and white “want to live together and improve the quality of life,and provide justice for all human beings who abide in our land.”

 

Shortly after the assassination, the OEO created a pilot project to establish summer recreation programs for children in poor urban neighborhoods.  The Salvation Army agreed to pay the $40 per week salary of recreation leaders for each of four anticipated programs in my small town. We four were 18 year old freshmen at OSU Newark. I was assigned to the near East-End African-American community, where the Reverend Charles Noble,Sr., pastor of the Shiloh Baptist Church had agreed to allow us to use a vacant lot across the street from the church. After weeks of meeting to figure out what we do and how we would do it with no firm plans in place I had had enough. It was already May and children would soon be out of school but we had nothing to show for all of our meetings but serious frustration. I announced I would not be attending the next meeting.Instead I could be found in my assigned neighborhood should I be needed.

 

I first introduced myself to Rev. Noble who could not have been more displeased to see a naive young white woman coming into the community with nothing to offer. I was equally dismayed at the lot I was to use. It was huge and covered with rocks,not gravel, interspersed with rusty cans,broken bottles, and gross detritus best unnamed. Next,I walked door-to-door introducing myself to the parents and aunties,asking what they wanted to see happen on the lot,and what type of program would be most helpful. The answer: a playground for the younger kids, a basketball court for the older boys and young men,horse shoe pits and picnic tables for the community-at-large. I had no budget.

 

I did have S&H green stamps earned at the local A&P. I called the number on the back of the folder where Mom pasted stamps to ask how many stamps would be needed to earn swings, a merry-go-round, teeter-totters,and monkey bars. They laughed but after a few minutes of discussion decided they could help and would provide those items if I delivered several thousand coupon books to the local A&P for redemption. When I asked my uncle how to make a horse shoe pit,sand boxes, and picnic tables he said “leave it to me. The guys at the missile plant can build them for you.” And they did. But, I needed sand. So, I called a Newark sand and gravel company agreed to supply the sand for the sand boxes and horse shoe pits if I could find a truck to pick it up. A Newark truck company agreed to do so. A Newark fence company agreed to install a chain link fence around the entire perimeter. The Newark asphalt company agreed to pour a basketball court and the Newark High School basketball coaches agreed to paint  the lines and install the hoops at regulation height.

 

The community collected every green stamp they could find and within a few days our playground equipment was on-order. Within three weeks,we had a fully functioning playground. Needing playground equipment:basketball,footballs,bats and balls,hula hoops,jump ropes etc. I played a game with two local stores. Sears agreed to match J.C. Penney’s donation of toys and raise the amount; Penneys agreed to match Sears and raise it. The Farm Store donated the shed to store all our equipment. Soon more than 200 children were regulars. Older sisters and brothers bringing little ones,even infants in strollers while their mothers worked. After the factories let out, the young men came by to shoot hoops.  When I invited the A&P manager to see what they had helped accomplishment I asked if he could help with a hunger issue I had noted. A&P provided cereal,milk and fruit each morning for every child,with hot dogs and chips on friday afternoons. My girl friends’ mothers rotated baking and delivery of cookies each afternoon.

 

The local gang provided security. We never had a theft,graffiti art,nor vandalism on our playground. The gang leader became our martial arts trainer, and at my insistence, learned the Queensberry rules to ref boxing matches we held using my dad’s old boxing gloves. Rev. Noble visited,his eyes narrowed, taking it all in, making a brief nod my direction before returning to the church. I let out my breath!

 

The Army,Navy,and Airforce recruiters provided drivers and buses for field trips.

 

A month after the playground was completed I was fired for failing to attend meetings and immediately reinstated once the OEO regional organizer finally paid the visit I had asked for weeks earlier. Mine was the only recreation program to be implemented in our town that summer.

 

Why am I writing about this today? Because the republican view of private enterprise, and the democratic view of government investments as engines for productive growth are both correct. There is a place for each. Without the OEO and its efforts there would have been no playground. Without the private donations there would have been no playground. Without the Salvation Army paying my salary,and Rev. Noble’s donation of land there would have been no playground. Without the volunteer efforts and donations from so many local businesses, there would have been no playground. It took all of us working together. It took INVESTMENT of time and money, public tax dollars and private funds. A balance of government and private investment built that playground.

 

What is NOT acceptable is an economic development viewpoint that austerity can build a new America. It can’t build a playground,nor a country! When President Obama talks about balance,calls for increased revenue and sensible cuts to programs which don’t work, he is absolutely right. to do so. Like me, he was once a community organizer.He knows how to get things done,how to get this country moving. He is doing so despite great odds. His Organizing For Action group is the embodiment of community organization. You can get involved by clicking https://my.barackobama.com/page/s/organizing-for-action.

 

Cutting taxes for the wealthy does not create growth. It merely creates more wealth for the already wealthy. Working men and women, built our playground. There were no wealthy donors standing in line to build a playground for poor kids. We need tax revenue to build a nation,a nation made up of local communities and neighborhoods like the east-end of Newark. We need government involvement to stimulate people and small businesses in those communities to help rebuild the infrastructure and programs which will “improve the quality of life,and provide justice for all human beings who abide in our land,” a goal that both Robert Kennedy and Martin Luther King,Jr. sought to achieve. Austerity is the function of dying. If you have watched a love one die,you know exactly what I mean. I want America to live and grow.

Leave a comment

Filed under POLITICS

TUGBOATS,by Louise Annarino 3-2-2013

TUGBOATS

 

The flag is torn.

The ship of state slips its mooring.

The sea is rough

whipped by winds of change,

the journey

unplanned.

 

Anxiety breeds like flies

on the dying carcass of democracy

and greed

continues to fill

the slaughterhouse

of capitalist desire.

 

The overloaded burdens

turn the captain grey before his time

and shudder the rudder

gripped

by his hands on the wheel

as the great ship moves forward.

 

 

 

The bobbing tugboats

common,  small,

and defenseless are all

that stand between

success and failure

as they guide the ship to calmer, deeper seas.

 

It is the tugboats which protect democracy.

Not the sleek yachts.

Not the OIL tankers.

Not the cruise ships…

but the tugboats’ throaty whistles

and hardened hulls.

 

They work the harbors of the world

dressed down and

heads up

for sights and sounds of risk.

Then, set the path

to true freedom.

 

Only tugboats

can bring the ship of state, and us,

to safe harbor.

Those aboard the ship of state may wine and dine

the Great Pirates of the seven seas.

 

They would be wise

to recall

that the lowly tugboat

holds them

all

accountable.

Leave a comment

Filed under POETRY